Everyday of my life, I am in a constant rush. I am rushed in the morning to brush my teeth and do my make-up, I rush downstairs to the car park, I rush to drive to work, gobble down the food like I've never eaten for days, rush to read my first emails. I rush to get home, cook, clean, shower.. then somehow by the time I finished all daily chores and sit on the sofa with TV on, my crazy rush has finally put to an end.
I often ask myself why I am in such a rush everyday? Why am I always late? Why I always forget things? Why I talk so fast? Why I get anxious and angry so easily? And lastly, why does all these rush stops the minute I sit on the sofa and relax?
The problem is I can't relax.. My mind is constantly occupied with thoughts. Loose trail of thoughts which does not add up/contribute to anything positive, but rather it breaks down my main tasks/goals into pieces because I have no space to do the things which requires patience. I am always so busy with the nitty gritties, the non-important things of the daily grind wherever my mood takes me, and I often have to drag myself back from my emotion-in-control-self back to reality, as suddenly I realised I have not been doing the things I should be doing but rather the things I felt like doing at the time! YES! that was the problem. I let my emotions drift, what's worse, I let my emotions run me!
In the morning, my emo says it wants to sleep in for another 15mins, result is I'm late for work, so I need to rush and make up the stupid mistake which my emo made earlier in the morning.
Start of work, my emo says it wants to check all of my social network sites, personal emails, blogs as a priority rather than start my work day with planning what I am going to do for the rest of the work day. Result is I've been delaying the work tasks til last minute, and I have to rush again at the end to cover up my time lost..
Because of no planning, no time management, I often realise at last minute of the important things. Then I'll stress out, I'll be anxious and angry.. Not with others, but angry with myself! Angry of my stupidity.
Ideally, I would like to start my day without slumping in bed forever. I'd like to get up nice and early and fresh, do my washing and careful make-up, drive out in the sun and the breeze, sit down at a cafe for a nice coffee and plan my day. Arrive at office on time, start referring to my daily plans and nut down each problem as I go. By noon, I'd feel I've had a productive morning, I'd be more joyful to enjoy a nice healthy lunch to treat myself for all my efforts in the morning, I'd take a 30-40mins walk/exercise down the road as a way to pay back my own body. Fresh afternoon with a cup of tea and getting down with the rest of the tasks for the day. How nice it will feel to leave office at end of the day and ticked off all my activities planned for the morning!!
I will start my day in this way tomorrow. Starting to me is no difficulty, but pushing myself to STICK to this routine and make it as my habit would be a big challenge. But I am willing to take this challenge and I know I will WIN!
P.S. Thank you to myself for not biting onto the junk food tonight, and instead I did the right thing! And for that, I feel good. And for that, I say thank you to myself and have a good night sleep. :)
I think it's fine if you like to sleep late and to do things other than work while at work. Some people prefer to work in a regimented way and others don't. A lot of people are happier just pretending to work while gaining promotions through flattery and politics.
ReplyDeleteSometimes "time management" is just a code word employers use that really means "work harder and produce more." It serves the employer's interests but is not necessarily good for our own health.